Wednesday, November 07, 2007

The More Things Change...

Fall Break Trip 053, originally uploaded by diahn.

...the more they stay the same, no?

It's funny. At the beginning of the month, I decided I would spend November blogging thoughts on the year and highlighting photography, rather than other types of art, in hopes that it would take away the stress of having to make sure I had a DRAWING to post every day. It's been a nice change, I think (and I hope you think so, too). I'm not abandoning my drawing or painting - just shifting my focus for a month or so. Change is good. I like it.

Of course, in reality, it hasn't lessened my (self-induced, OCD) stress on bit. Now, instead of obsessing over which drawing or painting I'm going to post, I obsess over which photograph to post. I find myself wandering around the neighborhood with my camera at hand just in case I see something amazing that I have to blog about. I spend all this time going through pictures I already have taken, hoping to come across a masterpiece that I forgot about.

Then I worry that my writing won't convey what I really want to get across.

Then I realize I've been sitting in front of my laptop for an hour staring at the screen while drool runs out the side of my mouth and I have no post to show for all my anxiety.

Yes. I am just that sad. But - here's the good part. It's getting better. Doing it every day means that I get just a little bit LESS obsessive about every post. It means I am willing to accept that this is a darn good photograph and people might enjoy it.

And THAT is a very good change.